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Among the Well and Loving Ancestors 🌿☀️🕯️
Today is August 26, 2026—my 49th birthday. 🎂 It is also my grandmother Daisy’s remembrance day. She passed away 44 years ago today, on August 26, 1982, my 5th birthday. And it has been 569 days since my mother, Gloria,… Continue reading
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Othala and the Conscious Ancestor
Inheritance, Lineage, and the Courage to Choose What Continues There are moments when a symbol does not merely interest us — it recognizes us. I held the rune Othala in my hand, carved into warm wood like something remembered rather… Continue reading
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🌿 The Tree in the Midst: Awakening Consciousness in the Garden
Sometimes the deeper meaning of a story doesn’t appear until we slow down and look at the language itself. Recently I found myself doing exactly that with the Genesis garden narrative—sitting with the Hebrew words, tracing their roots, and letting… Continue reading
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When the Cactus Bloomed 🌺🤍🌒
A meditation on patience, perception, and quiet trust This morning nothing changed — and yet everything did. ✨ The cats wrestled in their usual tumble of fur and tail.The sitar and tabla hummed softly through the room.The rocking chair creaked… Continue reading
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Abandoning the Theology of Suffering
There was a time when I believed that suffering made me sacred.That enduring pain was proof of my devotion.That if I could just love enough, stay long enough, endure quietly enough — something holy would be born from it. But… Continue reading
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When the Seed Does Not Bloom in Plain Sight 🌱✨
Lately I have been sitting with a quiet realization — one that feels both ancient and immediate. It began as a contemplation of the parable of the seeds:some falling on rocky ground,some on dry soil,some on fertile earth. But instead… Continue reading
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🌌When Ash Looks Like a Nebula
On false color, death, and the human need to see what cannot be seen 🌌🕯️ There is a moment—often in grief, often in wonder—when the mind stops categorizing and simply recognizes. Someone notices that cremated remains under a microscope can… Continue reading
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When Love Learns to Leave the Room 🌑
There are moments when grief arrives quietly—not as devastation, but as clarity. Yesterday was one of those moments. I didn’t lose faith.I didn’t change my values.I didn’t “wake up” to some shocking new information. What happened was simpler—and harder. I… Continue reading
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When the Nervous System Bears Witness
Why regulation is not avoidance, and care is not indifference 🌒 There are moments when the world asks more of our bodies than our minds are prepared to process. A video. A headline. A single image that carries the weight… Continue reading
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When the Ashes Come Home
🌒🕯️ There are moments that don’t arrive with fireworks or fanfare.They arrive quietly.Almost casually.And yet everything inside you knows: this is exact. Yesterday, I was told I can prepare to receive my mother Gloria’s ashes. Almost a year later. 49… Continue reading
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